Today was a rough day. It wasn’t by any means the first and definitely won’t be the last. I cried for both of us today. I cried because I’m doing everything with the abilities God gave me to be the best I can for you, and sometimes it still doesn’t seem to be enough. That’s what my scores tell me. Sometimes they make me believe that I am not enough for you, but future patient I know in my heart I am. I know because I feel it in my bones. No, that isn’t the most scientific description, but I care so much that it physically hurts sometimes. That may be because I haven’t slept enough, trying to fill my day to the brim with knowledge so I can be the best for you. And then because I am so excited about it, I can’t sleep. Or worried. I worry a lot, even though I know it does me no good, but I think it is a side effect of caring. Sometimes I also can’t sleep because I am thinking of you. No, we haven’t met yet, but I wish I could already be there for you, to care for you medically with meticulous consideration of every angle, but also to be a shoulder to cry on or with, or pray with you, or to be a good enough actress to let you think I believe you when you try to be strong even though I see the pain in your eyes. But don’t worry, I’ll find a way to help with that too and let you be strong in the process.
Future patient, I know we are going to get through this together.
"Hold him down!" "My goodness he is so strong" "We need a few tubes of blood" "NEEDLE ON THE FIELD" "Why would they lotion his skin before this?" How old was he before his brain turned on him?
Nicholas Bellacicco LECOM-Bradenton Class of 2021
_______________________________________________________________________________________________________________________ A man cried today. Not because of the ulcers on his limbs. Not because of the fire under his toes burning brightly as he walks Not because of the white coats surrounding him. A man cried today. Because a nurse knew him by name, Told him how much she cared about him He had no one. No one. And I didn't even know it.